no happily ever after... at least right now

My Prince Charming wasn't so charming after all. I thought that he was the one and only and we'd live happily ever after. Majorly Wrong. This relationship didn't start out like most relationships should have. It was a quick boyfriend/girlfriend period and i should have seen that but i was blind to see it due to being in love or lust not quite sure. I first saw him and thought "no way will i ever have a chance at him. He's to beautiful for a girl like me to be with." He proved me wrong in the three days after of meeting him. We fell for each other in a record breaking speed that would give a person whiplash. Things then got heated way to hot and he proposed to me way earlier then he had originally told me. He told me that we'd date for at least 3 months then he'll propose if we were truly meant to be. I should have said no to the proposal but how could I when his mom as well as both of my parents were there. If it were just me and him and none of our family members I probably would have thought longer about it. Gosh Dang it i'm too much of a good person to do the other choices from being nice. So here we are having like almost 5 or so months of being engaged, him with no job, and I with a broken heart (we both a broken heart). His mom is SO against who was once a friend to her (ie my mom) and Nick and I are totally not on speaking terms. I thought that we could be at least friends but man am I wrong. When it comes to those with Scorpio tendencies that is most likely not an option. They take the hard route while the Virgo I am try to make amends. So what's a girl to do when just about all the guys she's met have had some sort of confusion to where it's no worth understanding nor deciphering? Should I just throw in the towel and forget it? Or should I forgive and forget the transgressions? Tune in next time to see what happens.

listening to Fireflight on pandora. great music btw ^_^ great for heartaches. (go to pandora.com)